I’ve been incredibly busy doing a bazillion hundred things that are mostly super boring!! Also I think I’ve lost the notion of sleep somewhere along the line.
( And DID I EVER MENTION I DON’T DRINK COFFEE?? Coffee tastes mildly bad and DOES NOTHING FOR ME! Seriously I’ve been validated because I’ve finally heard of other people that actually do feel sleepier after drinking coffee!! I’m not the only walking lie in the online world YEEEEy. Also thanks I HATE THIS because I’m sleepy ALL THE TIME. )
I went to bed at 2 and woke up at 6 and then took a Very Important and Physically and Mentally Impossible Test™ (seriously even teachers say it’s impossible to do it all correctly in the time given AND YET THEY MAKE US TAKE IT ANYWAY THANKS) on Friday and right now the jolly tune of The Halloween Shark Song is playing inside my head. On repeat. Dudududuududuudududuuuu SEE WHAT I MEAN.
This is what my life currently looks like.
I am in Hell and all the demons are here and in other news Shakespeare is a liar. Also can I google “after how many hours of sleep deprivation does hallucinating come into play” just so I am prepared.
⇒What I’ve been reading?
Mostly books for Romanian Literature that were written 100 or so years ago! And I consider most of them to be a horrendous boring snoozefest – damned be the bibliography of last year those books were TERRIBLE. BUT!! I have hopes for this year and I’m actually enjoying the current book we’re discussing that is basically What If The Shining Happened In Rural Romania And It’s About Intimidating Pig Headers – because ya know rural Romania.
And a non-fiction book about the strange history of communism ….in Romania. It’s pretty self deprecating and has that terrible humour only academic people can have. Also, my only major criticism – IT’S NOT STRANGE ENOUGH. When you say STRANGE or PECULIAR in THE TITLE I expect alien conspiracy theories and this is thoroughly lacking in anything that exciting. Instead it’s only about the politics of 1930s Romania – which I find interesting in certain small doses.
By the end of December I should probably start making my way through some English literary canon books because English lit finals are coming up and well…those poor books by white men have been forgotten in favour of….other books by white men. What a tragedy that I most certainly am crying over.
Gotta get myself into a Robinson Crusoe and Gulliver’s Travels both of which I’ve actually read before in my smol childhood when I was a six year old tomato that couldn’t speak any English! Hah…gotta read the adult boring versions now that I KNOW WILL HAVE NO PICTURES. Ugh. Why aren’t there any pictures for adults I WANT PICTURES aghhhhh stop sucking the fun out of things adulthood.
I said I wasn’t doing Nano but Y’ALL KNOW ME SAYING THINGS LIKE A LIAR and I still wrote over 5000 words this past week. But they were spread over:
– 2 articles for GirlUp Romania (a feminist organisation) – you can read the first one HERE if you wish (pssst it’s in English)
– a presentation for my Human Rights class about stereotypes and how they are used to manipulate the masses. (The class is in English with a pretty old guy from The North of the UK that I get along with pretty well since he’s the only teacher I know that mentions gay rights openly!! He’s cool like that!)
– essays for all my other English classes in general
– a really big article I wrote just because I wanted to for my own enjoyment and the lolz about the connection between feminism and witchcraft
and the thing I’m most proud of:
– a 3k short story about a fox and fate for my Romanian class
…I AM A MESS IN BITS SCATTERED TO THE 4 WINDS BY NOW. STRESS? A CONSTANT MOOD! I’ve slept 4 hours please send a blanket and buckets of chocolate.
Moreover* I’ve been trying to set up an online magazine type thingy with my friends and WE HAVE A WEBSITE NOW!! And an Instagram account!! Because I’m an impulsive gryffindor and I made those one evening while procrastinating and basically forced them to take part with me MUAHAHAH.
Now it’s A REAL THING?!?! REJOICE WORLD and let us eat small tea biscuits with cranberries FOR IT’S A HAPPY DAY. I am a horrible kind of friend.
(Are the tears I’m crying right now of happiness or relief or just because I’m stressed and my emotions are all over the place and scattered on the floor? WHO KNOWS.)
Also am I slowly turning into Hank Green by doing approximatly 50 billion things? WHY YES YES I AM.
*look at me using those fancy linker words I’ve learnt for The Important English Test™
The story I wrote and mentioned earlier? I’m strangely proud of it!
It’s told in snippets of time over a year or so and it has death and strange witches in the forest and curses and it’s from the pov of a fox that’s maybe not really a fox!
The teacher said “short” story so…I went ahead and did a weird and strange narrative that’s 8 pages long and none could stop me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. If I mysteriously disappear from the internet just assume that the teacher called my parents and told them their child has been switched in the cradle with a faerie monster and they’ve banned me from the outside world.
….I’ve just realized I often disappear form the Internet so you’d probably never know the truth… Just assume the above anyway.
HERE’S AN AESTHETIC MOOD BOARD FOR IT TOO:
If you’d maybeee be interested in hearing more about it I can make a post?? I don’t know if any of you would really care since it’s in Romanian and you can’t read it….. TELL ME IN THE COMMENTS!!
!! yes I do read comments I just don’t reply to most of them BUT I DO READ ALL OF THEM or at least the ones wordpress shows me !!!
CAN YOU TELL I’M STRESSED AND DOING LOTS OF BORING WORK?
In case you couldn’t tell by my frenzied ranting. School hates fun so I haven’t been reading any fun books or watching fun cartoons so no fun blogging either.
Basically I’m prepared for my hair to turn white early.
Also I’ve just procrastinated learning all the countries in the world and their capitals and the American declaration of independence by writing this 1k word vomit of a post that is not even coherent. Thanks I hate it.
…somebody take this laptop away from me AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh!!!!!!