Yeah so…2017 was also one of the best and worst years of my entire life. Look at it multitasking. (…it can stop now that’s enough).
recommended soundtrack for this post : Impossible Year (the dodie cover because it’s sadder and SO AM I …I want to feel emo ok)
This really was an impossible year wow. Ok so this post will be a ball of conflicting emotions (LIKE MEEEEE) but I want to start positive and end positive! It’s like a cake and you have the really great icing on top and the delicious one at the bottom and you just shove the meh layer in the middle because NOBODY WILL NOTICE! (but they notice Susan oh they notice and then the spend the rest of the year judging you for it).
Umm…so congrats us for not blowing up the planet? Yey? Good job?
So Happy “you survived 2017 here’s a diploma and a lame sticker” Month! You get…to sleep I guess. Congrats dude we really are magic for doing this huh.
List of reason why 2017 felt like riding a bicycle on fire trough trash that’s also on fire and everything’s on fire
I love learning and I always have it’s just…school sometimes fails some people….and makes them feel bad for not understanding stuff like other kids do. COUGH. If my maths teacher is reading this I just want to say that I hope a dragon accidentally bites your head off…for no particular reason.
Also WHAT CRUEL PERSON THOUGHT EVERY STUDENT HAD TO TAKE CHEMISTRY?! I would’ve been fine not seeing a periodic table in my life thank you very much.
Ok so…I don’t talk about this much on my blog? Ok maybe not at all and in real life only when I’m joking about it (that’s my way of dealing with it ok? I’m in no way trying to be hurtful to other people. Everybody feels differently and has their own way of dealing with things). I had a huge exam that drained the life out of me earlier this year and the huge stress had a very VERY negative impact on my mental health. I had panic attacks and I was feeling very depressed and these 2 combined umm…kinda made me spiral into disordered eating. I am getting better though! And I’m feeling way happier at the moment so I’ve got hope for 2018!!!
And remember to call the hotlines and talk to someone you trust and feel safe with about these things if you ever deal with them! Stay safe it gets better ok?
-The level of world suck INCREASED (!!!)
Remember how we were all like “It can’t get worse then this” at the end of 2016?
….we were innocent summer children then. We played ourselves. 2017 was like “hold my beer”. Why. Why did such a immense amount of hatred explode on square meter?! It’s like everywhere I look on Earth there’s essence of suck concentrated.
Ahhhh…this one’s my fault. Yeah sure the world could suck less (PLEASE DO?? I THINK WE’VE ALL HAD ENOUGH??) but I could also not stay on my phone 24/7 worrying over every single bad news that I can’t do anything to stop.(..let’s be real I’m not going to stop reading articles about every single thing that happens so basically this is just my problem and I have a phone addiction because I’m glued to it constantly.)
-International bloggers ARC thingy
…I said that in my International Bookworm Struggles post…in September…
Do you hear that high pitched noise? Yeah that’s me SCREAMING INTERNALLY EXTERNALLY ETERNALLY. Goodreads, Netgalley, buddy chum pal mates, you do realize that I was joking right? RIGHT?!
This year summed up in a GIF
List of reasons this year was actually THE BEST?! Somehow?!
-SCHOOL (AGAIN !!)
Ok here me out a bit. In the middle of the year I went from middle school to highschool. AND. IT. CHANGED. EVERYTHING. I am so lucky that I have the actual best class mates ever?? And I take classes that I ADORE? I am surrounded by amazing and creative and accepting people (which may I add IS SADLY RARE IN MY COUNTRY?!) and it just feels a million times better.
-MORE SCHOOL (but this time it’s the grades!!)
Because as stressed out as I was about that DAMNED EXAM I took really high marks! And proved to my math teacher that’s I am actually NOT STUPID! Ahem. I took higher marks then everyone expected including me? Which yey exciting!
(but also noooo because it isn’t worth sacrificing your mental health for grades kids!!)
I traveled to some amazing places this year! Like thank you parentals for taking me to London after I begged them for half my life to get me there! And it didn’t rain ONCE the whole week I was there so it must be a sign that I am actual sunshine. And to Valencia for my birthday and made me skip school (I swear my parents are responsible adults most of the time)! And to Bulgaria but I stayed inside the hotel room because it had internet connection and I had to avoid the humans. Basically look at me I’m all over the place.
Because just a month before that crazy exam banaza my inner impulsive Gryffindor just decided “hey you know how you’ve wanted to make a blog for months? HOW ABOUT WE DO IT NOW?!”. And I then proceeded to not post consistently for about 4 months.
Yet here I am rambling on the internet and there you are reading this and THIS WAS THE BEST DECISION EVER? I now have over 100 followers ( 140??! WOW THAT’S A LOT?? I am sure I don’t even know 140 people in real life?! How do you all like all my bad jokes? You are here for my dog* aren’t you?). And I am so incredibly HAPPY.
*I wouldn’t blame you if you were tell the truth now
Thank you thank you THANK YOU to all the wonderful amazing fabulous people that made my year SO GREAT!
My IRL friends (that are not reading this blog but I though I’d mention anyway -WUDDUP YA’LL) and also my Internet friends (Ilsa, Marta, Ruby, Lu, Camilla, Marie, Amber, Rhea, Sophie) that I AM SENDING SO MANY HUGS TO (INFINITELY MANY!!). You guys made me feel accepted in the blogging community and I am so proud to be the friend of such a fantastic bunch. I am feeling many feelings right now.
I mostly hate humanity but one thing we do right is laugh at ourselves. We’re doing great dudes.
My year in monthly recaps
MOST POPULAR BLOGPOSTS?
- WORK HARDER IN ENGLISH! – You would think I would be kinda alright in English I mean hey look I am decent I thinks I can speaks English good. And yet…no. I HATE FORMAL ESSAYS AND I MAKE TYPOS WITHOUT TYPING where is the autocorrect button when you need one pls I am lost.
- Read 100 books (?) – Look I am optimistically aiming high here because I haven’t read most of this year’s hyped up releases and this is the first time I’ve ever felt guilty about that. And not because “oh noo the pressure to read” it’s just that I feel like I am missing out on so many amazing stories.
- Just…sleep? maybe?
- Get out of the house! – Me @ myself: Just ignoring the outside world and sitting like a lump on the floor isn’t helping you know that right? …
This year has had some really HIGH highs and REALLY LOOOOW lows which I guess it’s better then a “just meh” year? It means life is happening I guess? But at the end I am just exhausted. I need about 6483 naps and tea with honey and did I mention sleep? Because sleep?! I legit feel like I’m now so much older and wiser and like I should grow a beard …that might just be the sleep deprivation talking though (I still can’t figure out if being too tired to sleep is a normal thing?).